FifieLeGrand

@ 1:42 AM

The Weeknd - High For This

Hello lovely readers!Miss me?hihi

I'm really really really really sorry for the delay.There's a lot of things happened during the holidays haha and I've been having this mixed feelings throughout the holidays.Not a good one tho :/ But oh well,Im back now and Im happy :) My class is starting next week and I still haven't found the perfect shoes for me !Urghh its so annoying.I miss my friends sooooooo badly.Can't wait to meet them next week!

Its been a very typical boring holiday for me.Except my parents 25th anniversary celebration,it was the bomb.And the satay carnival that was held in Kajang last month.I can't believed we(Taylor's chef gang) broke a record for making the biggest satay in Malaysia.We,each are going to get a certificate from the Malaysian book of records! :D So epic right?And random!Hahaha

You guys must be wondering what actually happened to me right?Hihi hmm well,to tell you the truth,I still don't get it.I'm still asking myself questions that I have no idea what is the answers.It happened so fast.My friends don't really know what happened after I think maybe a week after that happened.And my parents have no idea what I've been through.

After all,I am the princess of acting.I'm so good of faking smiles and act as if everything is alright and I'm happy til I fell for my own act and actually believed its true.But they don't really know how I feel.They don't know how broken I am.How dissapointed I am.Empty,there are no other words to describe the feelings I've got.

But all I know is..I love him so much but maybe we weren't really meant for each other.Cus lovers ,if they really love each other,they don't really give up into one another that easily.After all the things that we've been through together.Never in my life I opened up to someone like that,breaking the walls of shyness around me,loving him with all my heart,that level of comfortability with him and to no one else,that patience I gave to him,that love and care I drowned him in,those kisses and hugs I warmed him up..but just like that,he walked away from me.Saying we're done while Im still figuring what went wrong.

I don't usually tell and confess my personal life here,through blogging but somehow I feel like sharing with all of you my story cus maybe you all could learn something from it.This break up does effect me somehow.Making me a stronger person that I am before.I learnt a lot.And the morale of my story,is to not give someone the love he deserve if he doesn't know how to appreciate you and please do not be afraid to tell him about what you really feel if he did something you dislike you and if you have an opinion on something.Don't give up and always fight for the ones you love.And please,girls...search for a guy who is not a complete...fucking child.Looks can be deceiving,I can really proof that.

“You can always tell how a man will treat his wife by the way he treats his mother.”

This is indeed a very nice quote..because its true and its the truth.

And please....search for a guy that will fight for you and for your relationship and doesn't make a big fuss over just one small thing.Just please,alright?Haha

Im so lucky to have such lovable great caring family,bestfriend and close buddies.They are my everything.I wouldn't be here if I ain't got them in my life :') So day by day went by,Im starting to feel happy again.Miera,she never fails to cheer me up anytime when I am feeling down.I remember,the day I saw 'him' with another girl,I cycled straight to Miera's house and about to burst into tears when I saw her.But then we went inside her room,and we sat down for a while.I started to tell her about what I saw and how sad I am and I was like crying so hard til Miera cried too and we hugged.She said she have never saw me crying like that ever infront of her before.Cus I never cried.Especially when it comes to guys.But there this weird feeling I got after I told Miera everything.A sudden feeling of relieved and I suddenly feel so 'light' like I lost this whole big burden from my shoulders.Its a feeling of hoping and expecting something that will never happen.Cus before this accident,I was somehow still holding on and hoping that maybe he will come and see me and talk about it.And maybe fight for me..but he didn't.So,after that happened,I don't have to hope and expect anything anymore.So I was like...you know what?

I am happy.I got good results for my exams.I got a good life.Got high with my bestfriend.Baked cakes for my family.Cooked special dinner for my family.Skyped like cray cray with my outta states friends.Worked out everyday.Went shopping.Got the clutch I ordered.Dad gave me money.And here I am now!Feeling better than I can ever imagine.I feel great and more confident more stronger than before ! :) All I know is I am worth to fight for and he just lost perhaps the most loyal girlfriend he could ever imagine and its a shame that he gave up for somebody who will never give up on him.

That's all for now,love.Stay tune for more juicy stories.

Thank you so much for reading!xxxxx

Friday, January 18, 2013 @ 11:28 AM Photatoesss. Some photos taken during my parent's 25th Anniversary Celebration,New Year's barbeque celebration and the Satay carnival.I also put some pictures of my first chocolate cake hihihihi :3 Mom and Dad's 25th Anniversary dinner. New Year's Barbeque celebration Grrrrrrrr! Satay Carnival We did it!! My first chocolate cake!Hahaha looks so cute :3 That's all for now,folks.Stay tune xx back to top?
Wednesday, January 16, 2013 @ 1:42 PM My newest baby :3 love love love xx back to top?
@ 1:42 AM The Weeknd - High For This Hello lovely readers!Miss me?hihi I'm really really really really sorry for the delay.There's a lot of things happened during the holidays haha and I've been having this mixed feelings throughout the holidays.Not a good one tho :/ But oh well,Im back now and Im happy :) My class is starting next week and I still haven't found the perfect shoes for me !Urghh its so annoying.I miss my friends sooooooo badly.Can't wait to meet them next week! Its been a very typical boring holiday for me.Except my parents 25th anniversary celebration,it was the bomb.And the satay carnival that was held in Kajang last month.I can't believed we(Taylor's chef gang) broke a record for making the biggest satay in Malaysia.We,each are going to get a certificate from the Malaysian book of records! :D So epic right?And random!Hahaha You guys must be wondering what actually happened to me right?Hihi hmm well,to tell you the truth,I still don't get it.I'm still asking myself questions that I have no idea what is the answers.It happened so fast.My friends don't really know what happened after I think maybe a week after that happened.And my parents have no idea what I've been through. After all,I am the princess of acting.I'm so good of faking smiles and act as if everything is alright and I'm happy til I fell for my own act and actually believed its true.But they don't really know how I feel.They don't know how broken I am.How dissapointed I am.Empty,there are no other words to describe the feelings I've got. But all I know is..I love him so much but maybe we weren't really meant for each other.Cus lovers ,if they really love each other,they don't really give up into one another that easily.After all the things that we've been through together.Never in my life I opened up to someone like that,breaking the walls of shyness around me,loving him with all my heart,that level of comfortability with him and to no one else,that patience I gave to him,that love and care I drowned him in,those kisses and hugs I warmed him up..but just like that,he walked away from me.Saying we're done while Im still figuring what went wrong. I don't usually tell and confess my personal life here,through blogging but somehow I feel like sharing with all of you my story cus maybe you all could learn something from it.This break up does effect me somehow.Making me a stronger person that I am before.I learnt a lot.And the morale of my story,is to not give someone the love he deserve if he doesn't know how to appreciate you and please do not be afraid to tell him about what you really feel if he did something you dislike you and if you have an opinion on something.Don't give up and always fight for the ones you love.And please,girls...search for a guy who is not a complete...fucking child.Looks can be deceiving,I can really proof that. “You can always tell how a man will treat his wife by the way he treats his mother.” This is indeed a very nice quote..because its true and its the truth. And please....search for a guy that will fight for you and for your relationship and doesn't make a big fuss over just one small thing.Just please,alright?Haha Im so lucky to have such lovable great caring family,bestfriend and close buddies.They are my everything.I wouldn't be here if I ain't got them in my life :') So day by day went by,Im starting to feel happy again.Miera,she never fails to cheer me up anytime when I am feeling down.I remember,the day I saw 'him' with another girl,I cycled straight to Miera's house and about to burst into tears when I saw her.But then we went inside her room,and we sat down for a while.I started to tell her about what I saw and how sad I am and I was like crying so hard til Miera cried too and we hugged.She said she have never saw me crying like that ever infront of her before.Cus I never cried.Especially when it comes to guys.But there this weird feeling I got after I told Miera everything.A sudden feeling of relieved and I suddenly feel so 'light' like I lost this whole big burden from my shoulders.Its a feeling of hoping and expecting something that will never happen.Cus before this accident,I was somehow still holding on and hoping that maybe he will come and see me and talk about it.And maybe fight for me..but he didn't.So,after that happened,I don't have to hope and expect anything anymore.So I was like...you know what? I am happy.I got good results for my exams.I got a good life.Got high with my bestfriend.Baked cakes for my family.Cooked special dinner for my family.Skyped like cray cray with my outta states friends.Worked out everyday.Went shopping.Got the clutch I ordered.Dad gave me money.And here I am now!Feeling better than I can ever imagine.I feel great and more confident more stronger than before ! :) All I know is I am worth to fight for and he just lost perhaps the most loyal girlfriend he could ever imagine and its a shame that he gave up for somebody who will never give up on him. That's all for now,love.Stay tune for more juicy stories. Thank you so much for reading!xxxxx back to top?